Still Here

I haven’t posted in a while, I am struggling with the situation here. DH is now on day 47 of not eating, over a month with no heart meds, and he’s refused fluids of any kind since Monday. The Hospice nurses are astounded that he’s still as strong as he is. He’s non-responsive to everyone but me…if take his hand and talk to him, he will squeeze it. I think deep down he knows he is dying. He is afraid and is holding on as hard as he can. It’s so hard to watch, and I cannot seem to come up with any words to ease him or me. It’s clearly not in my hands any longer, I just hope his transition will be peaceful!