Mother to Mother

Hi everyone,
My name is Stacey. My mom was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s last year at 64 years old. We saw signs for a few years now looking back, but we always just chalked it up to anxiety symptoms.

My mom is my best friend and I am having such a hard time with this diagnosis. Since last year, things have really progressed and it’s hard to not feel negative about it all the time. I keep telling myself “this is the best she’s ever going to be is today”.

I recently had my first baby - a girl, with my mom’s middle name. It has been so incredibly difficult to become a mom while losing my mom in the process. I feel like I missed out on such a beautiful connection for us to be moms together. I’m not sure what I’m looking for here but just feel so alone. I look at my daughter everyday and know exactly how my mom feels about me. And I know she is still in there but it has been so very hard.