He did it again

I had to go to my safe bedroom and lock the door cause DH was mad I wouldn’t t drive him to Ohio today. He was so verbally abusive I cried hysterically. He called 911 and told them I was acting crazy😳 The paramedics wanted to transfer him to the hospital cause it’s been 3 times plus my burn incident. The policeman said that won’t be necessary and gave me a social workers card. The young girl paramedic was clearly on my side and I was hopeful and thought maybe it’s time for him to be admitted for medication adjustment, but it didn’t happen. I called the social worker and begged her for a referral to a geriatric psychiatrist.
When the cop came in my room I was on this site….then I went downstairs and showed the paramedics and burst into tears. I said “ see this … this is my cry for help… this site right here is my only support… when he lashes out I come here … no it’s not me… my husband has dementia .” It’s all so exhausting. Trying to find help. Doctor won’t adjust his medication until he sees a psychiatrist. Trying to find help is a full time job in itself. I only sleep 3 hrs and there’s still not enough time in a day. I’ve read I’ve journaled I’ve watched videos I’ve prayed. I really just want to give up. I was kind of prepared for them to take him away today..I think…. but it didn’t happen so now im back where I started. I know medicine is the key but it’s been hard to find someone. He’s just do normal…until…. At least the girl paramedic saw it and it’s on record again, if that matters. I’m sorry I keep posting about the same thing but it could be useful to someone else.