Writing poetry in my grief

Reesecleo

I lost my mom two months ago to Alzheimers and started writing poetry for the first time ever about my grief last week. I've used my poems to explain my thoughts and feelings to friends and family and it helps with processing her loss. Writing poems has also helped me feel pride in something which is different from the apathy I've mainly been feeling since she passed. The poem below is about losing her to Alzheimer's and the feelings of uncertainty of how to live life in the wake of her passing. I'm horrible with titles so I'm afraid it doesn't have one. 

The past's siren song sings safe,

The future such a sharp object to embrace,

Oh how to live - not survive,

Feels like fool's gold to thrive,

The world is daunting and obtrusive,

Happiness appearing more elusive,

Is this my fate, my bane to bear,

To suffer the loss of her red hair,

Turned to white, turned to ash,

Memories exchanged for cold hard cash,

Is this my fate, to succumb,

To turn my soul and mind numb,

Or to persevere and ensare,

All of life's greatness with care,

The path's obscured, the cobblestones bare,

Uncertainty rushs through her red hair,

Which I am now shackled to wear

Sunshine days

Thank you so much for sharing these lovely, heartfelt and poignant words.

They really hit home to me as I lost my sweet mama almost 7 months ago now and am still feeling much the same as you describe. The apathy and mind and soul numbness are still very much a part of my grief journey, and although I feel I am making some progress through it it is a much slower go than I ever would have imagined.... 

I have decided to just take it one day at a time and walk the walk that I need to in the unspecified timeframe that I need to and I do believe I am moving forward. You have my thoughts and prayers that you will too in your own way and time as well. Be gentle with yourself and God Bless! 

TessC

Hard to imagine you never wrote poetry before. The loss and grief you (and me) feel is very well articulated. I'm sorry for the passing of your dear mother and I hope the healing will come to you in the time frame necessary for you to move forward at your own pace. Take good care and God Bless.