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Iamrjb

It's been a week. I miss him so much. The initial relief I felt that my dad is no longer suffering has turned to deep sadness. My heart goes out to all of you who are caring for a loved one who is suffering from Alzheimer's. As we say in Judaism, May the memory of your loved one be for a blessing.

SusanB-dil

oh lamrjb - so sorry for your loss.  Yes, it will take time to feel better.  We always miss those who have passed.  I have found that as time goes on, most of us are better able to remember the better times, and even smile at some of those memories.

RanchersWife

Lamrjb,

I remember you and I were in similar places about 19 days ago. My LO passed away on Sunday. Im still spinning and untethered. The final week and funeral was so busy. I have no words for how I feel.

Hugs. 

Iamrjb

Rancher'sWife,

I hope you find comfort in the happy memories of your LO. Wishing peace, love, strength, and healing to you and your family.

Hope street

I lost my mom in early December just as you both have lost your loved ones.  The first week or two was taking care of business, family, the funeral etc. Then the holidays came and that was a preoccupation.  I had been out of work for About 18 months caring for her so I decided I need to return to work. I worked 3 months at a job that was just a job but kept me busy and a bit of needed money.  Now I am waiting to go back to a job I held prepandemic/ momcare and really like.  

Keeping busy helped but I took care to feel my grief when I needed to.  And at times I have been overwhelmed by grief.  

I ebb and I flow as I expect you will also.  I am told it is normal after suffering a loss such as ours.

I thought the warmth and beauty of spring would ease my sense of loss but then I see the daffodils we planted together and they are blooming without her! Her peonies and violets are awakening... and for the first time in 95 years spring is bursting forth unrestrained...without her.

Adjusting to a world without our loved one is a journey in itself. Especially when, through necessity, this disease caused our world to revolve around them.

May God bless you both, and all who have gone this path before. A belated Thank you to those who have comforted and taught me with your posts  

abc123

I am so sorry for your loss. May you find great comfort and peace in the memories you have in your heart.