Helping ease worries during episodes

Cait.will

I am a caregiver to my nana. She’s struggling and so am I. I’m 23 and I have two young kids that I take care of as well. Most days she’s fine with me. We laugh and have fun but lately she’s been angry. Always worried that I’m putting poison in her food and water. Worried that I’m not taking care of her. It hurts. I bathe her, I give her medication twice a day. I make her meals and snacks. I put on her favorite shows and music. I do all I can to make her comfortable and happy. But when she gets in these episodes I don’t know how to ease her worry without upsetting her. I hate to see her cry.. what the hell do I do?! I refuse to put her in a home. My great grandmother suffered with dementia and I watched the caretakers in the nursing home treat her like garbage. I can’t do that to my nana as well.