Mom died this morning

EJ97

Mom died this morning. I have been thinking about this day for a long time, but there is no way to prepare for this intense grief. It's so different than the grief I have felt the last six plus years. It's just so final and I miss her so much.  I have no regrets. I gave it my all.  I have read other posts from people who lost their loved one that day and wondered how did they have the strength to write something but now I realize that this a place we can come to share our grief with others who are on this path. It's comforting.  I know my mom would not want me to be in such grief.  This morning around 8:15 the flashlight on my phone went on. I don't have a flashlight app and I never use the flashlight. That was close to the time she died.  God bless all of you. 

abc123

I am sorry for the loss of your sweet mother.

Mint

EJ I’m so sorry for the loss of your dear mother.

​fesk

I am very sorry for your loss, EJ97.

harshedbuzz

EJ-

I am sorry for the loss of your dear mother. I wish you the peace and rest that comes after a job well done- you have been extraordinary daughter and caregiver.

HB

toolbeltexpert

EJ I am so sorry to hear about your mom passing. The grief you feel because of the journey you have traveled isn't like any other, it is deep and profound. I am always looking for signs, God are you there? That light coming on for you would a sign. Tears, and prayers for you and yours as you continue thru each day.

ButterflyWings

EJ- 

May she rest in perfect peace. And may you also find comfort in knowing she is free from this disease, and that you helped her through it. What a beautiful but challenging sacrifice. 

As you grieve and heal, please know that you did your best for such a long journey and it is your time now. I believe in signs as well. She is still with you! Just free now. You both are. Wishing you and your sister well in Stage 8.

May flowers

My sincere condolences for your mother’s passing, EJ97.

Olly_Bake

You are so correct. No matter how we try to prepare our heart, mind, and spirit. No matter the fact when we see death coming or don't get an advance notice that it is coming. The grief is yet still almost always intense and sometimes almost unbearable. Been in these shoes many times with a sister, than a brother, and then mom.

Yes, mom may not want you to be in grief but as my old pastor use to say, "sometime you come down with a case of the can't help it."

Sorry for the loss of your mom. Job well done you two!!!

mommyandme (m&m)

This is so hard, I’m so sorry for your pain and sorrow.  Through your grief I hope you will feel some comfort and peace. Your mom is very proud of you for your commitment and kindnesses you provided throughout this journey.  My thoughts are with you.

JudyMorrowMaloney

Such a bittersweet time. She's at peace now

Joydean

Just want to add my condolences for passing of your mom. I also think at times we get a sign and that light on your phone was one. Jesus said “I am the light “! Praying peace and strength for you and your family. 

Lane Simonian

Your mother looks like she was a very kind, sweet, and happy woman.  You gave her all your love and care and she could feel that.  Wishing you some comfort and solace in the days to come.

live in daughter

Peace be with your Mom.  Peace be with You- Well Done!