Placement day

satchbee

"Not your fault...just be a good girl," were my LO's words to me yesterday...I couldn't stop crying, begging her forgiveness because I couldn't help her, because I could no longer keep her, or myself, safe....and she said: not your fault.

What a blessed gift she has given me!

I placed her in memory care yesterday. She was smiling and already making new friends when I left...I want her to be happy, so very happy...and safe. I want to be able to make friends with her new and evolving self. And I want to be part of the larger world again, to live and enjoy congenial company.

But, right now, I am broken inside...I cling to her words...spoken in a moment of lucidity: not your fault. Sweet, gentle lady...

MaryG123

Oh, so sweet.  I know your heart is broken.  Hugs to you satchbee (())

Ed1937

I'm sorry you had to go through this. It's about the hardest thing there is with this disease.

JoseyWales

I'm so sorry it's come to this point, but you're right, she gave you a gift with her words.

Joe C.

satchbee, Be kind to yourself in the days ahead. I found place was more difficult on me than DW and really struggled in the early days being home alone. I hope your LO acclimates quickly to her new environment.

Marie58

What a gift indeed. I hope you can remember that when the guilt creeps in. 

My DH's last complete sentence (he doesn't speak at all now) was, "Thank you for helping me". He said it often, even though he said very few other words. It's a gift for sure.

John1965

Seven weeks in for me. You captured my emotions poetically. 

I try to take a day off from visiting and go nuts in my own mind. 

I’ve tried two days “off” but just can’t.  … Letting go is so hard. 

ghphotog

Wow! What a moment of clarity and the exact right time to have it!

toolbeltexpert

Those are such beautiful words, thanks for sharing, makes me want to cry with you.

Stewart