Awaiting the ultimate

Raffy

Hello,

My grandmother is finally in the stage where we had to put her in hospice. She is my heart and i know that I can't be selfish and keep her here. Not like i could any way. I am trying to prepare myself as best I can. I can't eat or sleep, she is all i think about i kept trying to imagine life without her and i immediately start to have a panic attack. I lost my best friend in 2021, I lost my other best friend in 2022. My grand dad passed last month before thanksgiving. Now dealing with grandma. I am literally functionally crazy. I beg God to please give me a break after this. I try to comfort myself knowing she will be free and not trapped in this diease. I just pray that her transition will not be the last straw that makes me completely crack. I literally don't have anymore emotional capacity.

Jeanne C.

Hi Raffy I'm sorry. You've had a tough time and having a loved family member go through this is very difficult. Please find someone you can talk to, be it a family member, clergy, or doctor. It's important to have support.

JeriLynn66

Specialized Social Workers are available thru the 1-800-272-3900 hotline of this website. Ask for a Care Consultant. They will help you locate services in your area to assist you.

Wishing you well in this difficult time.

mommyandme (m&m)

Raffy, I’m so sorry for these difficulties in your life, it’s all just so hard. I hope you will have that special time with your grandma as she moves on.