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Was I living under a rock?

mrahope
mrahope Member Posts: 541
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I guess this is just a vent, but the feelings of betrayal and heartache are very real. My DH and I have been married 46 years. He has been in MC for the last two months. I always knew he had a negative side and some behavior that was questionable, but for the most part he seemed to be a normal husband and father before dementia set in around 5 years ago.

In the last week, however, as we have been cleaning out both physical and virtual spaces, we have found evidence of behavior that clearly crosses a line, and may have been illegal. I also feel that both of our children may have been hurt by this without my knowing it. I'm devastated and feel as though I've been betrayed. I'm starting to see my DH in a completely different light, and feeling as though my chance for clarity is now gone. How does a person move on from this? Had I known this earlier, I'm sure we would not be married now.

Has anyone else found unwelcome surprises after their LO went to MC? How did you cope? I'm heartbroken and angry and feel as if I never want to see him again.

Thanks for letting me vent here.

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  • GiGi1963
    GiGi1963 Member Posts: 112
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    How surprised and shock you must be. No answer but sending you strength and hugs as you tackle this unforseen event.

  • concerned_sister
    concerned_sister Member Posts: 425
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    I'm sorry you're going through this…on top of everything else. I can imagine it must be overwhelming.

  • JeriLynn66
    JeriLynn66 Member Posts: 886
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    @mrahope

    I'm so sorry. I'm glad you've come here to share your pain and sorrow. We care about you and know what a loving caregiver you have been. It will take time to process this, but I'm praying all the best for you. And will continue to do so as you navigate this journey. ❤️

  • CindyBum
    CindyBum Member Posts: 292
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    Wow. I can't even imagine the feelings of betrayal and worry about your kids. What another level of unwelcome stress and worry to work through.

    Sending you light and agree that taking care of yourself and your kids is absolutely vital right now.

    Hugs

  • mrahope
    mrahope Member Posts: 541
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    Thank you all for your kindness and concern. I was truly blind-sided and it's taking me a while to discover that so many things I believed in were not at all as I thought they were. I am trying to learn to accept that the person I thought I knew was not the person who was really there. Looking at all these things in a different way has made me sad and distrustful. Eventually, acceptance will come. I am thankful every day for the small things I can now enjoy and for the people (including all of you here) who are still showing up for me. I wish I could remember the good things and miss him, but it's going to take some time.

  • JDancer
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    Please reach out to your children. Find out if the were effected by his behavior and provide support, if necessary. I'm so sorry you're dealing with this.

    On a personal note, we had a friend with health issues who told my spouse where to find his porn collection upon his death, so his family wouldn't find it. Thankfully, it was all legal

  • Dio
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    Seek professional counseling, and maybe for your children, too, if they were affected. So sorry for your situation. Just know that there's help.

Commonly Used Abbreviations


DH = Dear Husband
DW= Dear Wife, Darling Wife
LO = Loved One
ES = Early Stage
EO = Early Onset
FTD = Frontotemporal Dementia
VD = Vascular Dementia
MC = Memory Care
AL = Assisted Living
POA = Power of Attorney
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