Moment of Being Overwhelmed with WHY?

sixcats

I get it. My BH got diagnosed at age 59. Six years ago. Also got COVID which set him back a million years. Today I was feeding him his puréed food at the memory care facility he’s in. He’s now almost 66. He may not make it to his birthday in May. What can I say? They call it the long goodbye. Yup, by the end of this journey. I was suicidal at more than one point. Got on medication that helped. Wow, we loved each other so much for 24 years. Unconditional love. How fortunate I was to meet and fall in love. He was the best partner I could have imagined. Now, I need to do all of the “end of life” stuff. Painful and overwhelming. All alone with our cats. May God bless you.

Russinator

((HUGS))

Marla13

It is good to get away if you can. We understand completely. ❤️

Arrowhead

I began keeping a journal about my wife's progress about 6 months after she was diagnosed. My first entry in February two years ago began like this: "For the first time since I started this journal 6 years ago, this entry isn’t about Colleen; it’s about me." I poured out my heart and soul about the hardships I was enduring and my, not always positive, responses to them. I spelled out everything I was thinking and feeling. I cried as I wrote it. Sometimes, even a man, needs a good cry to help release stress. I hope you don’t feel guilty about running out like that; it’s what you needed to do at that moment. I hope you find ways to cope and relieve your stress.