Moment of Being Overwhelmed with WHY?
Please no advice! Just a listening ear is what I need.
I am sitting at a Panera alone with an iced tea. I fled our home—literally—-a bit ago because I could not take another moment of being in the presence of DH with mild cognitive impairment from ALZ. I feel utterly alone in this moment and overwhelmed. I have no one to talk to that would understand. It occurred to me that if I posted here, strangers would understand. Maybe just admitting I am overwhelmed will help release some of the negative emotions spinning through me.
Yesterday DH developed a minor health issue, a muscle strain. For two days straight he has repeatedly asked me why he hurts, why does he have to rest, why can’t he go for walks—-WHY WHY WHY? I know the reason he repeats but it has gotten on my last nerve. I had to get some respite. I left him alone, something I rarely do. I don’t want to go back. I will, of course, but every bit of my self preservation says, “sit right here forever and drink iced tea”.😔