I think I’m losing it

hasbroz · March 27

Lately I find myself wondering if it’s my DW that has Alz or is it me. I find myself thinking that it’s me that put the frying pan in the freezer or that I’m the one that can’t remember where anything is. It’s actually kind of disturbing. Is this a thing?

Groovy's Girl · March 27

I was looking for the stapler last week…Looked everywhere. DH does tend to move things around….Finally found it in a place where it could've been him, could've been me.

Living with chronic stress will do this to you. Breathe.

Michele P · March 27

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This is stress. They move everything so nothing is where it is supposed to be. I put TILE gps trackers on anything important. We have all been there and live it!

sfrsythe · March 27

I go through this too and have I PTSD to with that too. It’s tough sometimes.

Chris20cm · March 27

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You aren't alone. I wonder too, I am so distracted by the constant need for vigilance to keep DW safe and healthy, along with the ambiguous grief of watching my soulmate decline mentally after 61 years together, that I forget where I put things, and sometimes buy things I have already purchased. The racing mind has been called Accelerated Thinking Syndrome or ATS. Also called Monkey Mind by Buddhists. I have it. That's my excuse anyway.

trottingalong · March 27

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I’m going to adopt your excuse. Sounds good to me!

Chammer · March 27

I just say my brain took a walk without me!

wilkins57 · 1:08AM

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I have experienced this as well and my DH and I are really just starting this journey. He was diagnosed about 8 months ago but myself and family members were noticing problems for about 2 years prior to his diagnosis. His neurologist says he is still in the mild cognitive impairment stage. I find I spend a great deal of time helping him look for items he’s misplaced, helping him with communication on his phone or iPad, and reminding him of appointments or things he has asked to be reminded of. I find myself being a bit absent-minded but I blame it on the need to remember all of his stuff and all of my own—I find it disturbing too! I would also agree that stress has a lot to do with it. Take care and try to ask for help when you need it!

sandwichone123 · 1:44AM

I think in the early/middle stages many of us feel that way. They can seem so normal sometimes, and then not, so it almost feels like gaslighting. They have no control over it, of course, but it's as if they're saying, "I'm fine. But one of us is losing it!" Then the next day when they're clearly impaired, we feel like we were crazy the day before thinking they were fine!

Jgirl57 · 2:28AM

yes, I think it is a thing. You are basically thinking for two and I think our own brains get muddled trying to manage it all. When I do make mistakes it’s usually because I am trying to multi task and think ahead. Now is definitely the time to do the things you can control to manage your health and stress (nutrition, home chair exercise or whatever you are able to do). Glad you posted.

tonyac2 · 3:04AM

Yeah, it’s a thing, it’s called stress. Hyper vigilance, caregiver burnout. It’s awful to have to do the caregiving and the workload of two to keep things going. I love my DH dearly but it’s hard to keep giving and giving with nothing in return. Being responsible for everything. I lost an insurance check recently and thought I accidentally threw it away. Looked everywhere even called to see how to stop pymt and issue a new one. That was lovely. “Can we please talk to the policy owner to verify the account?” No, he has dementia and barely talks to me. OK, you’ll have to do A, B, C and D and blah, blah, blah. Thankfully I found the check. So yeah, it’s stress.

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