Sandy's Anniversary

Army_Vet60

ThisLife

Army_Vet60,

What a heartfelt poem and a beautiful tribute to your wife. I wish you peace in the future and continuing beautiful memories.

Ed1937

Thank you for such a sobering poem. Beautifully written. It's been 14 months for me, and I wish you would drop in more often. We miss you.

Joydean

Thank you for sharing your poem with us! Your love for Sandy is felt in each word. You are missed, but hope life is good for you.

Army_Vet60

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Hi Ed,

I needed to step away from here and make some changes in my personal life.

I had to end some relationships and find new people and places who had no connection to Sandy.

Eventually I made new friends at social dances a met a widow at one and we've been a work in progress for the last 10 months. We understand we other's loss and grieving and what we can give to each other.

I'm not sure this new site is an improvement....

Dio

Beautiful poem! So good to hear from you, and glad you're moving on. Don't let this new site keep you away. I've gotten used to it. Wishing you the very best in your next journey...

SDianeL

such a beautiful poem! Such a beautiful tribute to your Sandy. My DH is 78 and is in Stage 5, going into Late Stage 5. I'm saving your poem.

Army_Vet60

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Hi Diane,

Thank you! I'm happy that poem connected with you.

When my wife passed away in August 4 years ago, I was lost and went into Grief counseling for nearly 18 months.

The counselor tried a number of approaches to help me cope with Sandy's death and express my pain. I was a published poet for several years in my 20s and started writing poems as therapy and to honor Sandy.

I posted some of the poems here in hopes Caregivers who weren't in Stage 8 would benefit from my experience.

I hope the poem you saved can benefit you as you continue on your path with your DH.

Caro_Lynne

Army Vet, what a beautiful way to honor your DW Sandy! Made my heart skip a beat reading your poem and imagining the love you still have for your DW. You are gifted with the ability to put your feelings into heartfelt poems that touch others. Thank you for sharing your gift xo

M1

AV so glad to hear from you. Time flies.

clndaniels

Your poem really resonated with me. I just lost my DH on August 5. He was diagnosed 6 years ago so we have been on this journey awhile, but I really didn’t expect death to come so soon. His health was fairly good but swallowing had become a problem and he aspirated something and without extreme measures would not have recovered. We sat with him for 6 days as he languished. I know he is now whole again, but I miss him terribly, not what he had become recently, but what he was before Alzheimer’s.

Joe C.

Army Vet, Nice to see your post & know you are doing OK. Your poem is certainly a tribute to your relationship you had with your wife.

Jeff86

Beautiful sentiments, Army Vet. Your deep love for Sandy was always evident in your posts. I’m sorry the grieving has been so difficult, but glad you have begun to emerge and are making a new life. Visit us when you feel able to.

Last Dance

Army Vet60, I have wondering how you have been. I know that you had life struggles. I loved your poem I could feel your love for Sandy and life in it. I am happy that you have found a new way in life. Life has not been kind to me, for the last 3 years I was my only daughters caregiver as she struggled with cancer. she passed away on May 28, 2023 so for me the struggles of dealing with another loss love has started all over again.

Army_Vet60

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Last Dance,

I can't find the right words to express my sorrow for your loss. Losing a child is unimaginable for a parent.

ButterflyWings

ArmyVet - thank you for sharing such precious poetry honoring your Sandy and all that she means to you. I am happy that you have a new connection to explore as it helps to move forward with someone who understands.

I appreciate your beautiful gift. We are dipping a toe into Stage 7 and some days I realize this could be the last one. There is no way to prepare for what is happening with the daily losses, nor what is to come. Thank you for sharing your feelings and your process. It helps when the sobering reality hits me out of nowhere, more often right now.

BTW, I am not a fan of the website changes either, mainly as many posts seem to have been lost. But the lifelines and bonds with forum mates makes it an irreplaceable resource so I am glad you posted.

Army_Vet60

Butterfly Wings,

Thank you for responding. It means alot to me.

I don't know exactly what to say about stage 7.

Your LO may say or do things completely out of character to you, but please remember you are loved, and it is the disease.

Stage 8 is a rebirth of sorts. It's a brave new world for the caregivers who survive losing a loved one to Alzheimers.

Again, thank you for responding.

White Crane

Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful poem to your dear Sandy. I have wondered about you at times and am glad to see your post.

Brenda

amicrazytoo

I am amazed at how this site has changed. It has been 21 months since DH entered into stage 8. I have occasionally stopped by and snooped around. It was so very hard at first to come here and feel the pain that the one's not yet to stage 8 were feeling, I was too raw. I am better now, although I would give anything to have him back, I may have hated him and the disease, but I loved him more. He was my soul mate. It warms my heart to know that ones who have been down this path keep coming back. To those still in the thick of it, I offer you (((HUGS))) Enjoy every moment, every laugh, every tear. They will sustain you on the other side.

Army_Vet60

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"He was my soul mate."

That is my major concern about being in Stage 8. Losing my soul mate.

I feel like Stage 8 is being stuck living 'day after day'.

I hope there is a Stage 9 that involves experiencing happiness again without being haunted by the past.