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  • M1
    M1 Member Posts: 6,788
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    thanks Jo, yes, I posted on the other thread that we're back to square one. So far the only clear hospice benefit has been the adjustable frame hospital bed.

    She's back to maybe close to basline before the recent bad fall. Spending perhaps more time in bed and not eating great (no recent weight), but eating some and says she's hungry. Still very uncooperative with most things unless I'm there.

  • ButterflyWings
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    @M1 No one but a fellow dementia caregiver would believe our experiences. You really, truly cannot make this stuff up. My heart goes out to you and your LO.

    Reading your recent experience caused a flashback to a couple of ER trips from H3ll and one MC respite experience that made me wish we had a caregivers’ enforcer team that could roll up and shake some sense into those who cause pain, suffering and anxiety FOR NO REASON!

    I hope and pray your partner is more comfortable by now. What would she have done without you! ?

  • ghphotog
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    M1, I was looking you here to get an update to where things are for you and your partner.
    I wish we good say things like "I hope she gets better soon!!" but we know that will never happen.
    There is no getting better, only returning to some baseline which next month, next year the current baseline will be much further down the rabbit hole.
    I hope you are doing OK through all of this and that your health is holding up.
    H

  • CindyBum
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    I am praying that she is released from her pain and you from yours, M1.

  • ThisLife
    ThisLife Member Posts: 267
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    @M1 For me the last bit was like a chaotic whirlwind. I say the "last bit" because I know the duration can vary widely. Initially I didn't know it was the last leg.

    Addressing issues as they came up was a continual game of Wack-a-mole. It became clear that instead of waiting for the next shoe to drop, I knew every day there was going to be some new challenge. Often exacerbated by others.

    When it was over I had the feeling of what the #*@& just happened! All I can say is keep putting one foot in front of the other, don't think too far ahead, and accomplish the bare necessities. I am with you in spirit.

  • Ed1937
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    M1, I'm so sorry you are both dealing with this now. I had no idea. As hard as stage 8 can be, it's the best place for both of you now.

  • JoseyWales
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    M1, it sounds like things just won't settle down for you. I was hopeful after her move to the different room. But this disease always brings new challenges. I am inspired by your care for your wife.

  • White Crane
    White Crane Member Posts: 913
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    M1, how terribly difficult for you right now. It’s exhausting. I understand about letting chores go by the by. Just do what absolutely has to be done and take the best care of yourself that you possibly can in this situation. Praying the bath aide will have success. Hang in

  • fmb
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    M1, I empathize with how your world has shrunk and how difficult it is to do even the barest of necessities. I'm in a similar situation with DH's care, compounded by my physical activity restrictions due to recent cataract surgery (2nd surgery scheduled for July 1). I drive in every day to feed DH breakfast and lunch, take care of hygiene needs that aren't done by the hospice aide, and advocate for him with facility management. Almost nothing is getting done at home beyond basic grocery shopping and doing a load of laundry when I get desperate.

    Don't be afraid to ask for help with various chores. After decades of relying primarily on myself, I find it very difficult to ask, but ask I must. I came home yesterday to find that the lady next door had mowed my side yard adjacent to her house (and I hadn't even asked) and another neighbor has offered to mow the rest of my grass. Neighbors have offered to pick up groceries for when they go to the store and to drive me to eye doctor appointments. Simple things to be sure, but oh so helpful and meaningful. Just from how you help people here in the forum, I am sure that you have helped many in real life. Now is the time to allow others the blessing of helping you.

Commonly Used Abbreviations


DH = Dear Husband
DW= Dear Wife, Darling Wife
LO = Loved One
ES = Early Stage
EO = Early Onset
FTD = Frontotemporal Dementia
VD = Vascular Dementia
MC = Memory Care
AL = Assisted Living
POA = Power of Attorney
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