For better or worse, I'm back

Just wanted to pop on and give an update on the goings ons with the family since I know a few on here are familiar enough with me and it's been a few months since I've posted.

Mom's now getting help from Hospice. She's mostly only taking fluids and doesn't eat solids in any real capacity. She can still ambulate but she needs either someone to support her or a really good rest (which hardly ever happens). All medication has pretty much been cut off because we couldn't reliably give them to her. She is on .5mg of Clonazepam but it doesn't seem to do much of anything. Generally she's in a good mood when she is alert but starting to show signs of sundowning again now that it's late autumn.

Dad still doesn't quite know what to do with someone with Alz but he tries. Mom's disturbed sleep has left him sleepless for a month or so. He has a hard time regulating his emotions because of that and it's taking its toll on me too.

I left the forum a few months ago very stressed out and with suicidal ideations. I am not better but I am managing better. I am doing my best to cut back the stress in my life that I can. All my time is carefully allotted for taking care of mom, working, or managing my stress and recovery.

We have an in-home aide that's been with us since August but this is their last month with us. I'm worried that once they're gone, my stress will ramp up again and I'll be back to where I was in July. I am hopeful that this feeling will never come into fruitation since things have changed so much since then. I just want my life back.

I hope all of you have been faring well and that your loved ones are safe and warm.