Death watch
I think my partner has given up and is starting to actively die. She sleeps the vast majority of the time, will wake up briefly to eat now and then if I feed her (makes no effort to feed herself that I’ve seen). She must get up a little bit at times that I’m not there because things are still moved around in her room a little bit. She still makes it to the toilet here and there, I found her this morning having taken her Depends off and put her pants back on backwards. But they’ve found her on the floor twice during the night this week. Most of what she says makes no sense. She tells me she’s hungry and when she’s had enough. Mostly I sit here reading while she’s asleep. She doesn’t respond to music or television. She does still recognize me and tells me she loves me.
I wish I knew how long this would continue. Everything feels on hold and on vigil. I want it to be over for both our sakes. My fear is that it continues far too long. Very little quality of life now.
