Over it!

Some days are like that. I'm sorry.

If I remember correctly, your husband was recently diagnosed. It's a lot to handle. Your life has changed. It's scary. It's OK to be sad about that. I hope tomorrow is better for you. When my husband was first diagnosed, it was rough. I was trying to figure out his care and the legal stuff. I just took it one thing at a time and did the best I could. Not everyone may agree with me on this, but two years in and it's gotten a little easier.

That being said, you need to do what you can to take care of yourself. I've learned so much from the generous people on this forum. I've read up on dementia (FTD in our case). I've gotten benefits set up for my husband so he's well cared for. And I've gotten myself help - a great support group and therapist have made a huge difference in my life. But some days I still want to pull up the covers and take a pass. We all do. Hang in there and be gentle with yourself.

so sorry you are going through this. You are angry at the disease. That’s normal. I hate this heartbreaking and terrifying disease!! Is there someone you can call to stay a few hours so you can take a break?

Anger, sadness, depression, numbness, etc., remember it's all part of grief. We are in grief and are mourning for good reason. It's good you're letting yourself have your feelings. It means they're flowing through you; they're moving. It's when we suppress or repress them that they can get stuck inside, get dammed up, and cause havoc.

Give yourself lots of caring talk, kudos, and tlc.

I have had so many of those days in the last 5 years. Some days I’ve been so angry, bitter, hopeless and sad that I thought I’d never make it. Joining a church saved my life. I found friends who loved my husband right where he was and included is on everything. I’m now facing a new chapter placing my husband in memory care this week. I pray it’s the right decision I’m only 62 and want to keep my career. I’ve managed to take care of him and keep all my clients to this point even taking him to employee meetings with me but I’m not able to take him with me anymore. I feel so guilty but I also don’t want to give up the rest of my life and he really doesn’t always know who I am. I hope you can find your peace in this dreadful journey. God has definitely pulled me through.