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Lonliness when caring for a spouse with ALZ/dementia

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Maru
Maru Member Posts: 132
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My DH is not quite in the middle stage of ALZ, and most days he is "normal", but he isn't really. His critical thinking has diminished in most everything except math. We used to have spirited discussions about matters of faith, politics and so on. Now, half the time he can't hold a discussion about a movie that we watching because he either didn't understand it or he can't remember what just happened. Even when he sounds as if he knows what he is talking about I'm not sure if he is making stuff up or not. Long story short…I'm living with this man, still a wonderful, kind, loving man but I feel like I am just a caretaker, not like someone who is in a very long comfortable relationship. I can't share this with our grown children. It would just make them feel bad and what can they do about it? I miss my husband, my life companion.

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  • Lesley Nammar
    Lesley Nammar Member Posts: 3
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    I am in a similar situation. My DH makes up stories and indeed he thinks it’s true. I have been trying to to find him a companion for once a week visit. I haven’t had any luck finding a male. Besides he gets paranoid and suspicious about other people. Yes, our days of having our best friend and soul mate are gone, only memories. At least we have the memories. My DR neurologist told me I need to take better care of myself. Please let’s all take better care of ourselves so we don’t get sick and pass before our spouse.

  • Biggles
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    Welcome to this lonely journey. My DH has VD and Aphasia it used to be spirited conversations about politics, life, yachts, navigation, business (he was an architectural draftsman and our own business) he is sweet and still the love of my life but I have to keep reminding myself and looking into his eyes to find it. I use music, dancing (shuffling) to music in the kitchen, romantic soft songs during the morning shave and talking to anyone I can find, the tradesmen, the gardeners, the grocery delivery people and our puppy who is totally forgiving and oh so happy. Good luck I so understand this predicament and feel for you.

  • CindiEC
    CindiEC Member Posts: 19
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    My husband went through this stage. Now he doesn’t speak at all. I miss the sound of his voice. I hate this disease.

  • Maru
    Maru Member Posts: 132
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    i hadn't made the connection, but i am now talking to anyone and everyone, just to have a conversation, however brief. DH and I do talk, but I am always guarding what I say and how I say it to protect him from anxiety. I don't want to make him question himself any more than he may still be doing. My heart aches for you.

  • Maru
    Maru Member Posts: 132
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    I think it would be comforting to my DH to watch some of the old films or programs. Thanks for the idea. Maybe I can get away with listening to a book via ear buds. He wants us to watch TV together and I don't know that I can bear watching some of that stuff.

  • Chammer
    Chammer Member Posts: 176
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    @Maru I sometimes use ear buds to sit w DH while he is watching TV so I can either watch something else on my phone or iPad or listen to podcast or audio book. He does get irritated when he realizes I'm not invested in what he is watching. I let him know I am sitting w him and that counts.

Commonly Used Abbreviations


DH = Dear Husband
DW= Dear Wife, Darling Wife
LO = Loved One
ES = Early Stage
EO = Early Onset
FTD = Frontotemporal Dementia
VD = Vascular Dementia
MC = Memory Care
AL = Assisted Living
POA = Power of Attorney
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