caregiver all my life.

I read the posts on here and so far, they make me fear the future. I know what's ahead but hearing everyone's reality and stories makes it so more real. I started life as a caregiver to 4 of my brothers. They had muscular dystrophy and I at age 12 started taking care of them. I was the oldest of 7 so my mom needed my help. By the time the last brother passed away I was 20 and getting married. I had also completed my studies and became an RN. I had 2 children and worked full time but provided most of the care and parenting to them. My work life was for individuals with Developmental Disabilities, and I spent 40 years taking care of patients. I also took in an adult with Down syndrome who lived with us for 13 years. I took care of my mother and Grandmother who both died of dementia. They both lived with me near the end of their lives. Fast forward I divorced and remarried a man who loved to take care of me. I think it is the first time I let someone totally care for me. We have been together 15 years. Now he is diagnosed with MCI due to AD and I am taking over more and more of the household responsibilities. It is only a matter of time, and I will be a fulltime caretaker again. Can I do it? Yes. Do I want to? That's a hard answer. I will because I love him and he would if he could do the same for me. It just makes me so sad to be here. I have completed DPOA, MPOA, wills and Medicaid trust and living will. So have that out of the way.