Dementia, Paranoid False Memories and Coping

You have just voiced what today, I am going through. I thought I was on top of this, acceptance, happy to go along with all words, thoughts and deeds, getting into his world. We have been having a great time as much as possible, at least I was feeling OK about my lot and I recognise that I am a lot better off than some, not having to cope with anger and frustration. My DH is generally in good spirits, is cooperative, we can go to the theatre, have picnics at the beach etc and then I hit a brick wall. His paranoia has increased to baddies coming through the back fence, builders noises from next door are evil and he thinks his carer is also evil. He is waking on the hour from about 2am in the morning, pacing around the house, he is having trouble swallowing his pills even with honey and spitting them out, his aphasia is so bad there is very little speech now or just word salad and his confusion has increased. I am tired of making conversation with me, trying to get him to swallow his pills, managing his toileting needs, spoon feeding him and dressing him. He is very shakey and unsteady on his feet and I am just tired. I buy everything on-line, it's just too hard to shuffle around the shops, I have home help for cleaning, and the garden, he has a carer that he doesn't like, twice a week for a few hours, but he wouldn't like anybody. Tonight I feel washed out, lost and alone, although I have a loving family, it sometimes makes no difference. I hope tomorrow will bring sunshine and a less tired attitude for us all. Thank you for the rant. I am sorry Rono I have no suggestions just sympathy and understanding for you. Tonight I'm over it. Maybe someone on this forum can help.