Feels Like a Lose-Lose

We moved my 82-year-old stage 3-4 Alzheimer’s mom from an independent living place near me to an urban assisted living place while she was on a trip last week. She is very angry and refuses to let us stay when we visit. She says she is being surveilled and kept prisoner (she can walk out anytime she wants, she just has to sign out/get buzzed out). She’s “being treated like a baby”. She says everyone there is “brain dead” and “very old”. She isn’t trying at all to make friends or participate. She tells the staff she doesn’t belong there. My sister stayed for a long walk and happy hour—there are kind and interesting residents. The staff is kind.
She was at a lovely independent living but she stopped taking walks bc she was afraid she would get lost. She stopped going to activities. Her boyfriend of a year at that facility tried to get on her car insurance, her meal plan, he tried to revoke our power of attorney, he told her when to see us and when not to, he wrote scripts for her to interact with us. When we tried to interact with her or help her he told her we were controlling her life and encouraged her to resist her diagnosis because she just has a “little memory problem” but is “perfectly capable” of running her own life. He bullied the staff to conceal that she had a bad flu from us (they did not). My sister met with him and staff for early five hours—she asked he stay out of mom’s legal and financial affairs and to stop driving a wedge between her and her family. He flat out refused. She sees him as her hero. She has always loved secrecy and breaking rules. Because of these factors, we have almost completed guardianship.
The doctor sat her down and very clearly told her she needs her daughters to make her financial, medical and legal decisions. She cried and cried but then forgot that conversation two hours later.
Despite her clear need for care and the things my mom has done when she was healthy that were very hurtful to me, I feel terrible that she is suffering and that it is my “fault”. I picked the wrong residence, I took her away from her romance and her suburban room with a patio. I guess we will have to move her again but she’s not going to be content with anywhere we pick. She wants to move to another state and buy a little house. That is not possible in her condition.
I hate this. My family worked so hard to pick a good, safe, welcoming place with activities and a community. My sister about killed herself making my mom’s room beautiful with all her things and interests. I understand my mom’s feelings but there is no perfect solution.
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Don’t move her yet. A week is not nearly enough time for her to settle in. Especially when leaving someone who was controlling her as much as her boyfriend was. It can take several months. Instead… don’t visit for two weeks. Give the staff and the other residents time to get her acclimated.
Assisted living is a higher level of staff supervision. However it’s also a higher level of care. Because AL residents need that. Your mom needs that.
You hit the nail on the head when you said she won’t be happy anywhere. So try not to feel guilty about stopping at this facility rather than searching for another … and another … and.
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Welcome. I often feel like I’m in a loose loose situation. It’s tough. We want our loved ones to be safe and happy. Sometimes happy just isn’t possible. My mom has said hurtful things to me before dementia. Many people can just blame the mean and nasty comments made on dementia because it is so unlike how their mom would act. I find it hard to know what I can blame on dementia and what is just her. It’s tough! You have already done everything you can to make her place nice and to keep her safe. I would not move her again! You will just end up with the same problem. It’s not that specific Al that she doesn’t like, she will probably not like any of them. I think I would talk with a doctor to see if there is something she can take to calm her a bit. The fact that she wants to move out of state and buy a house shows she has anosognosia. This is a common symptom and is the inability to recognize her symptoms or limitations. It stinks. My mom has been in Al a year and feels there is no reason she shouldn’t be able to live in her own house. She constantly asks me to take her to her house so she can do things(it’s not an option) She does participate in activities (although she doesn’t think she belongs there because she is in so much better shape than the other residents). She tells me what I’m doing(keeping her there, not bringing her to her house)is wrong. The stress and the guilt is overwhelming. I’ll tell you what I try to tell myself. It’s not your fault she isn’t happy, she is safe and that’s what is important. Good luck.
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@Etta321
Hi and welcome. I am sorry for your reason to be here but pleased you found this place.
You and your sister are to be commended for taking the difficult but necessary steps to get control of this situation.
I agree with QBC that it's possible she, like many PWD, lacks the capacity to be happy anywhere. Dad was miserable in MC initially; he had all the complaints your mom has. The people were all old. They were all "looney tunes" not recognizing his own advanced age or cognitive impairments. He he was also miserable living at home with my mom.
Sometimes safe is as good as it's going to get although odds are she may become more contented as her disease progresses. You and your sister have spared her financial ruin, humiliation and heartbreak at the hands of this sketchy boyfriend who would have moved on once he bled her dry with no funds left for her continuing care.
As for the guilt, this is something you are doing for her, not to her.
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