My Mental Health

Hello, my mom is in the final stages of Alzheimer's. I still go see her at the NH and it still is so painful to see such a vibrant woman deteriorate for the past 7 years. I don't know if she knows who I am or who she is at times I say to my self "why go"?

It's good when I see her and she is still in bed, her hair is not fixed up, is thirsty, etc. Because then I can help her again like I used to. I know and socialize with a few other patients, Nurses, CNAs and staff.

When I leave, I go straight to Church. I pray for her, the NH, me and the world. However their are some weeks where I just can't get myself to see her. I suffer all week with guilt and depression. This is just the way it is for me. Recently I started DBT and it really is helping me cope with my emotions. I hope everyone has a blessed day and thank you Alzconnect and all the people here. I would truly be lost if I did not join Alzconnect a suggestion from the Alzheimer's association. 🫶